Horrible day ends....more to come ?

Today has been one of those days that I am glad is over . But what's to come scares me. I'm awaiting tests results for ansely . She was in DC march for life last week (another post) when she arrived back late Sunday she had a really bad nose bleed . She is prone to them. It lasted 30 minutes she thinks . Poor girl was txt me because she wasnt home yet . She is still dizzy so we don't know why.
A few days ago Ryan txt that he was coming down here to get his tools and stuff out of the storage unit . And was putting the rest in my garage . I said no I don't have room . So he was rude and said he would get rid of it. So this morning I decided to get another small unit and go get what I needed and move things .
I find it odd that he had the money to pay two months storage , gas down here and a hotel . I question that ....more on that .
While I was out for a walk on the beach with Sebastian , Ethan. And the dog , ansely called me freaking out that their dad was there . They didn't let him in. He did try to get in she said .
I had already talked with them and they said they didn't want to see him. I told him . He still showed up .
He had txt prior that it was not right I wouldn't let him see 'our' children . Which I reminded him he left us almost 9 months Ago! Did he expect to just show up and come in? I have no idea of his mental state. I have to protect the children.the agreement was he had to keep me in on his care etc.He has not .
He did txt me wondering where we were . I didn't tell him . I had to walk back home hoping not to see him . I live on an island . He knows my walking routes . Sure enough as I was leaving the beach I saw his truck . So I went back on the beach . I def got a workout today . I'm sure I walked 8 miles haha. Poor Ethan and Buddy .

He leaves me a message saying he needs to talk to me about the van . I knew this was not good. See when he deployed the van loan fell under the soldiers and sailors act . Well ryan hasn't apparently paid iit in a year. He said he didn't need too . Yes I know what your thinking...
He knows how to upset me . It's mean . He knows I worry about another repo . Since he didn't pay for my suburban in 2006 it was taken , I was pregnant I devastated me . I was left with no vehicle . But even then he didn't care .
So again I'm faced with the possibility again . He said he would take care of it . It's in his name . He can't pay yet he somehow got down here . Yes his stepmom . That doesn't like me 'loaned' him them money to come down here. I find it disturbing . Non of his family calls me . I can't imagine the lies he has told them . They think he is ok .....

So I lay here scared . Something I haven't felt in months . I have no idea what he might do. He did txt that he wants the guns . Which I have removed from here for now . I do not feel he needs a Glock. I know he has access to guns in ga anyway.

The reality has hit that I really don't have 'husband ' that intends to take care of us . I know I have to file a divorce to make sure what ever income he is getting the kids are cared for .
I wish i would wake up from this bad dream . I appreciate any prayers you can offer .