My friend's Blog about her Angel babies

Please go read my dear friend Kelly's blog about the many babies she has in heaven http://angelsremembered.blogspot.com/2015/02/where-to-start_15.html

 She is such a sweet momma and her and Michael's love for all their babies is beautiful and precious.

I was with them when Paisley was born. I am also a bereavement doula and I took photos of their precious hours together with her. A time I will NEVER forget. I also have 4 souls in heaven and posted here http://mommylisadoula.blogspot.com/2012/04/in-loving-memory-of-my-babies.html

Every life is precious from conception to natural death.......

Stations of the Cross

Tonight we went to the weekly Lent Stations of the Cross . Ethan is in the red plaid . And ️Felicity has taken to reading amazingly ! I always cry during the stations thinking of how Mary must have felt seeing her son . Our cathedral is still being renovated so we were at St benedicts the moor. It reminds me of the smallness of the baptist church I grew up in. It is a beautiful parish.

Rest in Peace Debbie Moortgat

I am so deeply said and in shock to have learned my friend and accupuncturist has passed away suddenly . This past year I had been going to see her at first for severe tendinitis and then she helped me with Premeno issues . She was a friend , healer and ' therapist' . As I laid on her table I remember her always encouraging me to relax that this was MY time and I deserved it . She always told me how amazing she thought I was being a single mom to 6 . I can not begin to share how much she meant to me and how much she helped me . I have always been terrified of needles and never imagined I would ever see an accupuncturist . But a fellow catholic told me  about her and how special she was . Plus she was right by my house ( I walk by her office everyday on the way to the beach) her office was t new age and I fact she was Christian and her husband was Catholic .

I had not been able to get in to see her in a few months due to just being broke . She was so sweet and understanding and money wasn't a issue , she often held a check for me so I could be seen and many times just saw me . She always told me call When I needed too . 

I called her cell phone Thursday to see if she could see my daughter because she had a horrible migraine, she was always so generous with her time . But this time someone else answered her cell which surprised me . The lady sadly informed me " are you patients of Debbie's I'm sorry to have to tell you this but she passed away two weeks ago" 

I asked a few questions , and learned she had been diagnosed with stomach cancer just 6 weeks prior. 

I still can't wrap my head around the fact she is gone. So many dear friends I know have lost loved ones the past month . It's just all so heartbreaking .

Debbie may you rest in eternal peace with our Lord . Pray for me sweet lady . I will always remember and Honor you and make sure to take time for me to recharge so I am able to be there for my children , others and give like you preached at me about . I can see your kind face and hear your calming voice .

Here is her obituary.  http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/staugustine/obituary.aspx?pid=174046976

Giving up

Well looks like I am

Giving up more than facebook for lent . I made a decision to leave facebook for lent and possiblly longer . Not something I chose lightly . Sure many, including my kids think it's stupid . It was just a simply a timing thing . I have been dealing with so much in my life I just needed a break . But having a doula and photography business I need or thought I needed facebook to get more clients . So I am trying to trust that God will let clients find me through word of mouth and my website. Because due to lies and gossip and backstabbing in the business world I feel it has affected me negatively. 

 I am praying thru lent that those that continue to spread lies about me will see they are wrong. I am praying God will prevail . Because lies and gossip and false accusations affect my entire family and my ability to provide for them . 

In the meantime I have to deal with this a computer that mysteriously looks like this . I closed the computer before I went for a run in the cold this afternoon and one of my daughters opened it to this . 

See everything I do is on this one computer . I school my kids from it, my photography and doula business is run from it. Yea I admit I pretty much lost my shit when I saw it. Pray for me and pray for my kids. 

Lenten thoughts 2015

 Some signs of Lent in my house . 

 In conversation with God is one of my favorites .

Sebastián's face as he looked at himself in my phone aka mirror 

Me and half of My children , the others are going to noon liturgy 

       

Marked for Salvation (from Magnificat )

  

 

At the beginning of Dante's Purgatorio, the Pilgrim discovers seven Ps scratched across his brow─one for each of the seven deadly sins (peccati). Through his laborious climb up the seven-storied mountain, one by one, the P's are wiped away. It is the image of a soul saved, but still struggling free of sin's sevenfold lack of love. 

     Lent charts us on a laborious course up a similar Mount Purgatory. And at the base today we too find our faces begrimed. Our ashes make public confession that we stand stained by our wicked deeds. We have earned the dusty death wage of sin. Yet, like the guilty Cain, who received a mysterious mark from the hand of the Lord, this sign we wear is also God's seal of protection (cf. Gn 4:15). We are branded today with the sign of the cross, as sheep of the Lord's own pasture, so that the devil (who would make on us his own mark of the beast) will know to keep his thieving hands off. The sign of the death due for our sins thus becomes the emblem of hope─if we believe in the cross and repent in dust and ashes. Ezekiel foresaw this mystery in vision when he saw the saved, who grieve over the sins of Jerusalem, having an X written upon their brow (Ez 9:4).

 

Reflection based on Matthew 6:1-6, 16-18

  Father Anthony Giambrone, O.P.

  

Heavenly Father, may the indelible mark of the cross sealed

upon me at Baptism be engraved more deeply upon my heart.

May my penance this Lent help put 

Today's suggested penance: 

Spend fifteen minutes or more praying the holy name of Jesus.

  

 

May God fill your Lent with his presence 

and lead you to a renewed experience of his love.